And this or similar is happening to more and more people. The last six-and-ahalf years have been hell. Often, I've thought, "This isn't true! This really cannot be happening. I'll wake up and find it was all a nightmare," but it's real. Firstly there's the horror of what happens to one's body and mind - it's like being a garden sprayed with Round-Up - then there are the shocks of people's reactions - I've always preferred plants and animals but I had no idea that humans wre as stupid or as cruel as they are - then yoiu discover the bottomless pit of corruption and complexity that lies beneath it all and is responsible for its design and nurture. I really do wish (if wishing were any use) that I'd topped myself straigjt away six-and-a-half years ago - I wanted to, but was all full of duty as usual. (Inclduing the duty of waring as many people as possible about quinolones. Well, hah, 0cos I've warned many, many thousands via blogs, forums, newspaper comment and conversation, but hardly anyone listens - just dance on their merry way to perdition.)
The same companies that market pharmadrugs also market agro-chemicals, Microsoft is involved in genetic manipulation, Google has bought at least seven of the companies that make drones and robortos.. We're ll involved in the destruction of this once-lovely plant and even those of us who really care can't avoid being involved one way or another. That's another reason i wish I'd stoipped sooner - it's impossible not to do harm (unless you live in tipi-village in Wales, but even then..) and even worse once you're crippled.
I think "positive thinking" is very much to blame, as it usually means "not facing the truth!"
Still, it's too late now, since a long time.
Have you noticed the synthetic clothing and its ubiquity? (Petroleum by-product.) Rescuing birds on an oiled beach, stuffed into small boats to escape war in the Middle East, climbing the once-mysterious Everest, stuffing Macdonalds and boozing on a Friday nite in some squlid Brit-citry, dancing traditional magic in a rainforest - everyone is wearing the same trashy nylon clothes and bloody trainers!